Ramblings

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After surfing the internet over the past few days this GIF represents how I feel those without Autism see those with Autism raise awareness about their condition and aim for acceptance within the community. This is a generalization mind you and I could be completely wrong.

How do I explain this? I’ll do my best. Basically I feel like they either don’t care ( again probably not true) and/ or aren’t too sure what to think. When someone posts about Autism such as a Parent of someone with Autism, a Psychologist , an “Expert” etc. people take notice and gather information from them but when someone with Autism speaks up  they can fall on deaf ears and/ or have what they say challenged.

Looking online there are viral posts such as ” Autistic Child has a meltdown- What will happen next will warm your heart” ( I made this headline up but it sums up some things I have found) , ” Mum shares heartbreaking posts about having a 3 year old with Autism.” These tend to show the “bad” things such as the meltdowns, being socially isolated, being bullied, ” not fitting in,” being stared at in the shops etc.

Personally I feel like these go viral as it highlights the bad and goes hand in hand with the common “traits” with Autism ( in the diagnostic criteria) such as socially isolating one’s-self, having meltdowns, experiencing sensory overload and “not fitting in with other’s.” Don’t get me wrong there are good viral posts out there such as someone with Autism achieving their goals and doing other great things but personally it seems the “bad” ones spread better. On another note the diagnostic criteria sounds really negative.

As there is so much information out there that is worded in ways such as “struggles with” ” isolates” ”  being bullied” “can’t go to places because of sensory aspects” when good is mentioned or condescending information is given ( the positives instead of the negatives) this is seen as wrong and can be criticized. It’s time we spread more of the good and spoke up against the negative label put on us. As someone with Autism I aim to spread the good and hope to change some perspectives on Autism.

I apologize if this doesn’t make sense and I know this is poorly written. My hands won’t coordinate with my Brain, but on the same token I was able to get out what I wanted to say. See what I did there?

Until Next Time.

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Crisis, Baldrick, Crisis!!!!!

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Yesterday, at the shops… a crisis happened. Well, it felt a crisis. Sensory Overload.

A previous conversation had left my heart racing and caused every calm emotion to leave my brain. Then I realized I had to go to  the shops and I could not avoid this, and I also thought that I would be okay. I was wrong, oh Boy… was I wrong!

Standing in the isle trying to suss out the best and yet cost effective Cat Food to buy my ears started to ring and somehow my heart rate increased even more. How my heart didn’t explode I do not know. Reading the labels became impossible as words mingled together and did not make sense. Then everything started to close in on me and every noise was magnified.

The only thing I could do was stand there glued to the spot and still as a statue. People passed me and I felt a few glances but I did not care. This crisis needed to resolve itself or I was going to scream. To my relief noises stung my ears less and space was growing around me. I was able to stock up on Cat Food and make my way out of the shop, although I slammed my car door closed quite hard and was amazed at how it did not break.

How did I overcome this? I can’t say this worked 100% but it may work for you;

  1. Breathe. It’s hard and it might be too loud/ overwhelming but you might be amazed at how much your mind decreases racing by breathing. Breathing also seemed to ground me and bring me back to a little calm.
  2. Close my eyes. Closing my eyes blocked out colours/ visions and stopped me from sensing glances around me. This allowed me to calm myself down a little and rationalize my thinking (well, as much as possible.)
  3. Focus on the task at hand. I had to get Cat Food, and I had to open my eyes. Opening my eyes I focused all of my energy and all of my concentration on the prices and brands. This was all that mattered. After a few minuets I made my purchases and walked out (well, paying too. Shoplifting= bad.)

I did more but I can’t remember what I did. These may not work for you as we’re all different and different strategies work for everyone in different ways but maybe give these a try. Also with the glances that come your way and occasional negative/ mean comments- do your best to ignore them. They could be judging and/or working out whats going on but you focus on you. You’re the most important person after all ( you focus on you and your well being first, as selfish as that may seem.)

Until Next Time.

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Autism awareness month- Good or Bad? (Autism Speaks questions)

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I’m scared about writing this article, scared about potential backlash and scared I’m over-reacting and/ or saying the wrong thing. I know it’s the internet and the internet can be savage but please, be kind!

I’ve seen talk about Autism Speaks/ Autism Awareness Month (April) and how it’s bad and I’m writing to ask people’s opinions on this? I’ve also read about how Autism Speaks does not speak for those with Autism and brings those with Autism down. I’m afraid I’m not aware about this organisation so could people please fill me in?

I’ll also do further research as I’m highly curious about this because if Autism Awareness Month is bad… I’m not okay with this.

Short post as I’m brainstorming topics to write about.

Until next time.

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Memes, glorious Memes!

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A short post but a dedicated post thanking those who make memes, potentially the greatest thing to happen to the internet… and Humanity.

Things haven’t been too great Family and mood wise but memes have provided a great distraction and humor in the shittiest of times and reminded me that there are good things out there.

Believe it or not memes have also helped me socially, for example providing me with something to discuss with others and make things easier by providing me with something to relate to others with.

More helpful posts and posts to do with Mental Health/ Autism to come soon. But for now, I leave a quick thanks. So thank you, you legends!

Until Next Time.

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Some say I’m a dreamer…

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My second last post ( I think) I was talking about finding the motivation to keep on writing, and now I struggle with possibly confronting reality.

My motivation has risen again but I find myself debating… with myself (bad writing) if my goals are realistic and if they can even be reached.

According to the internet there are over 60,000 blogs out there in the internet universe. That’s a massive number and a massive number of amazing articles. Some bloggers might dream of being famous, having their blog well known and having thousands of views a day which there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

My dreams? I want my blog to be very well known and to be a source of information and inspiration to thousands, if not millions but with over 60,000 blogs out there how is this even possible?

Writing this it may seem like I want to be better than those 60,000 and to be in competition which isn’t true. I want to collaborate and share other’s stories and articles to and be equally as good as them… if that makes sense.

But am I getting too ahead of myself? will this ever happen? will I just be dreaming too much again and expecting unrealistic outcomes? will this blog fail and will another dream just fade away?

Until next time.

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What’s with the name?

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“Nothings going to change my world. ”

What’s with the name?

Strange name isn’t it? where did it come from? doesn’t it sound a little depressing?

If you know me you’ll know I love old/ older music and “across the universe” is one of my most favorite Beatles songs. I heard a cover of this song one day and thought ” now that would be a name!”

When I was younger I wanted to be different to who I was, I wanted to be “normal.” I didn’t want to be picked on for being different, I didn’t want to be bullied anymore, I didn’t want to be socially awkward and mistaking social cues and I wanted things to stop being so loud and in my face.

Around 20th March last year I was officially diagnosed with Autism and that’s when it hit me, Autism will never go away, it’ll never change and I’ll in some way have to make peace with it.

I was told that when I was younger I was always off in my own little world, and in March last year I realized that nothing’s going to change my world.

You know, I’m now okay with that. I’ve come to peace with Autism and I feel like it’s come to peace with me. I will always be different and maybe sometimes I’ll come across those who tease me or call me out for being different. But that’s okay. It’s not perfect, but it’s okay. I’m me.

I’m weird, socially awkward, erratic mood individual and a little odd but I now won’t let anything change that. I chose this name as I accept Autism and Me. I write to share this with you and to share my life, stories and hopefully advice ( non-professional by the way) with you.

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P.S Any feedback on the blog and content? any words are welcome.

 

Must.Keep.Going

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You’ve felt it, I’ve felt it… those un-motivated feels.

I’ve been pretty unrealistic in my goals and expected my blog to be in a better place ( more views etc) by now which has left me feeling underwhelmed. As it was pointed out to me I need to be more realistic and realize that things take time.

Still, finding the motivation to better my blog and to keep putting out content has been hard lately. The comments and views lately have been from Facebook blog commenting/ viewing threads which don’t get me wrong I’m grateful for their support but I feel I want more views from WordPress forums/ people finding this online.

To continue I know I need to draft topics out and return to writing helpful advice as that’s one of my main aims for my blog. I also need to structure things more. I ask of you- any advice to continue?  for example how to draft posts, get external views and find motivation?

For now, going to go source motivation. Trying not to give up!

Until Next Time.

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