Autism awareness month- Good or Bad? (Autism Speaks questions)

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I’m scared about writing this article, scared about potential backlash and scared I’m over-reacting and/ or saying the wrong thing. I know it’s the internet and the internet can be savage but please, be kind!

I’ve seen talk about Autism Speaks/ Autism Awareness Month (April) and how it’s bad and I’m writing to ask people’s opinions on this? I’ve also read about how Autism Speaks does not speak for those with Autism and brings those with Autism down. I’m afraid I’m not aware about this organisation so could people please fill me in?

I’ll also do further research as I’m highly curious about this because if Autism Awareness Month is bad… I’m not okay with this.

Short post as I’m brainstorming topics to write about.

Until next time.


Stigma and Taboo!

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Actually no idea why I chose this GIF as I don’t know if it has anything to do with the stigma of talking about Mental Health concerns/ issues but Joey though! (that’s him..right?)

Anyway I’m here to write about the stigma with talking about Mental Health concerns/ issues. It honestly seems taboo to talk about mental health things (mind blank on words) for example with depression. Here’s my story…

I was diagnosed with depression six years ago and sometimes I feel I can’t talk about it even to this day. For the sake of confidentiality and being a nice guy I won’t mention names but if I was having a rough patch I would hear such things as ” people have it worse than you so what do you have to complain about!?”, ” please just snap out of it!” ” your situation isn’t that bad!” ,” they * a person this person and I were talking about* have depression caused by chemicals but you just have it because you’re sad!” “you’re just over-reacting and need to chill out!” and many other things.

As you’d imagine I felt like I was over reacting so it wasn’t right for me to “complain” about how I was feeling. I still feel this now and have had more comments since then in terms of my treatment and various professionals I’ve seen over the years. I feel it’s taboo to talk about my depression with certain people around me and I know this feeling needs to stop.

People around me have also said that they’ve felt worried to talk about their concerns with others because of the stigma and fear that they won’t be taken seriously.

This is why this blog is here.  It’s time to end the stigma and taboo. We need to be able to talk with others in a safe environment about our mental health concerns/issues (however you want to word it) and not be judged about it. We also need to change how mental health is treated in the Community/ within Hospital settings but I’ll write more about that later, let me assure you.. there are heaps of stories!

More writing soon on actual helpful stuff and stuff to do with my brain and feels.

Until next time.



Memes, glorious Memes!

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A short post but a dedicated post thanking those who make memes, potentially the greatest thing to happen to the internet… and Humanity.

Things haven’t been too great Family and mood wise but memes have provided a great distraction and humor in the shittiest of times and reminded me that there are good things out there.

Believe it or not memes have also helped me socially, for example providing me with something to discuss with others and make things easier by providing me with something to relate to others with.

More helpful posts and posts to do with Mental Health/ Autism to come soon. But for now, I leave a quick thanks. So thank you, you legends!

Until Next Time.



My Thoughts on Suicide — Beckie’s Mental Mess

Originally posted on The Bipolar Writer: This is an updated version of a chapter in memoir The Bipolar Writer. For those who have read my blog post about suicide, you know how important this subject is in my life. I have been through so much with my suicides. I now advocate against suicide. With that said…

via My Thoughts on Suicide — Beckie’s Mental Mess

Some say I’m a dreamer…

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My second last post ( I think) I was talking about finding the motivation to keep on writing, and now I struggle with possibly confronting reality.

My motivation has risen again but I find myself debating… with myself (bad writing) if my goals are realistic and if they can even be reached.

According to the internet there are over 60,000 blogs out there in the internet universe. That’s a massive number and a massive number of amazing articles. Some bloggers might dream of being famous, having their blog well known and having thousands of views a day which there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.

My dreams? I want my blog to be very well known and to be a source of information and inspiration to thousands, if not millions but with over 60,000 blogs out there how is this even possible?

Writing this it may seem like I want to be better than those 60,000 and to be in competition which isn’t true. I want to collaborate and share other’s stories and articles to and be equally as good as them… if that makes sense.

But am I getting too ahead of myself? will this ever happen? will I just be dreaming too much again and expecting unrealistic outcomes? will this blog fail and will another dream just fade away?

Until next time.





What’s with the name?

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“Nothings going to change my world. ”

What’s with the name?

Strange name isn’t it? where did it come from? doesn’t it sound a little depressing?

If you know me you’ll know I love old/ older music and “across the universe” is one of my most favorite Beatles songs. I heard a cover of this song one day and thought ” now that would be a name!”

When I was younger I wanted to be different to who I was, I wanted to be “normal.” I didn’t want to be picked on for being different, I didn’t want to be bullied anymore, I didn’t want to be socially awkward and mistaking social cues and I wanted things to stop being so loud and in my face.

Around 20th March last year I was officially diagnosed with Autism and that’s when it hit me, Autism will never go away, it’ll never change and I’ll in some way have to make peace with it.

I was told that when I was younger I was always off in my own little world, and in March last year I realized that nothing’s going to change my world.

You know, I’m now okay with that. I’ve come to peace with Autism and I feel like it’s come to peace with me. I will always be different and maybe sometimes I’ll come across those who tease me or call me out for being different. But that’s okay. It’s not perfect, but it’s okay. I’m me.

I’m weird, socially awkward, erratic mood individual and a little odd but I now won’t let anything change that. I chose this name as I accept Autism and Me. I write to share this with you and to share my life, stories and hopefully advice ( non-professional by the way) with you.


P.S Any feedback on the blog and content? any words are welcome.


For fellow writers!

As of late I have been neglecting my mental health blog posts and have struggled to find topics to talk about. In order to help others who may be in a similar situation I have compiled a list of blog post ideas for mental health bloggers. Tell your story (your mental health, your journey, etc) […]

via 27 Mental Health Blog Post Ideas — Imperfect Beauty